I'm so glad I'm not Insta Famous
a tiny rant (or observation) about us, the radicalized
I wrote this in December 2024, and a post I saw today reminded me of publishing it. thanks post! thanks brain. This text may not flow for all neurotypes, I’m sorry if it’s confusing.
I'm so glad I'm not Insta famous !
the constant battles on this platform are wiiiild
instead of working with each other,
we’ve made an art of taking each other apart (publicly),
not even considering giving each other the benefit of the doubt or whatsoever, ever
instead of complementing each other's nuanced views
sharing our different experiences, to move forward together,
people give each other shit allllll the fucking tiiiime
Who gets to decide what's radical and abolitionist “enough” and what's valid and … what ???
all these hours put into curating posts and reels and "doing it right” and then processing all the emotions that come with the fights people have online who we generally agree with, who want the same things as US. Not U.S., us.
where is the time to grief
the loss of interconnection, the loss of land, the loss of…
it hurts to watch
what is this?
why are we taking each other apart?
is this what liberation and community looks like?
where is the love, like, literally.
instead of only giving each other shit and telling people what we don't like or agree with, can it be possible to create and build the world that we want to live in, together?
do we just wanna live in a world where we judge each other (for making mistakes, having different opinions, not-as-understandable experiences) ?
we are people, after all
all of us are fucked up have done fucked up things will fuck up more
we are people, after all !
while the fascists are watching us and loving how we fight against each other
(THEY know how to be in community, and accept each other - their common goal is clear)
they literally don't even have to do anything for us to cease having power, if we all hate each other
sinking in a swamp of judgement and righteousness, we won’t have any power together, or will we? how do we get out of this? I don’t want us to drown.
(If you know how that would work, let me know - I am open to knowing how you see things, too - I may change my mind)
and
I am aware that I know very little.
though from what I'm observing online, I feel like
if people would put as much effort and time as they're putting into making themselves seen & be understood on social media
into offline -
- reading
- close relationships
- community building
- mutual aid, organizing, and prepping,
- as well as playing and dreaming together,
many who try so hard to be seen and understood and held, would actually feel a little bit better, and would BE a little bit more prepared for what's to come.
I guess?
The truth is that since I have close relationships and community offline
like actual, caring ones,
that make me feel seen and heard and understood and safe
I don’t feel the need to judge
so much
anymore
(neither others nor myself)
and I make soooooo many mistakes !
I certainly don't want to invalidate anyones feelings, and also
what IS this apppppp (Instagram)
can someone make a new one? I have heard of options.
do you judge each other so hard when you're face to face in person too? how do people survive just giving each other shit all the time, I really don't understaaand (this is the rant)
(- and I’m also not surprised. I know it comes from hurt and oppression,
and I know the privilege is mine
So I also wonder, should I even speak?
At least you have the choice to not hear me)
Am I now judging you for judging others?
I’m certainly no exception either
I’ve judged so many
out of fear for my own, other’s - safety.
safe - ty.
thank you. for being here sometimes
(being alive in a body on earth is generally unsafe)
what is the part of you, that judges others afraid of would happen if it wouldn’t judge others anymore? I’m sure it wants to help you, us. To be better. What’s this part’s perception of “better”, and “right”?
What is good?
What is right?
Less power, unseen bodyminds, broken hearts
will be left
in the Left
to be penetrated,
by the Right
they’re not right
they’re fascists
but no I think, we actually are - better than that :)
